"Therefore he brought down their heart with labour; they fell down, and there was NONE TO HELP. Then they cried unto the LORD in their trouble, and HE SAVED THEM out of their distresses."(Psalm 107:12-13)
"Cry unto the Lord". Please break free from the guilt and bondage of a choice that you made years ago. It's over and done with, LET IT GO! It has had control over your life long enough. You will always have "friends" that will remind you of your past but that's all they can do, unless you let them in your head. "There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit."(Romans 8:1). You are free from your past and present by God's Grace and your FUTURE is exploding with possibilities, so go for it!!!
Please don't allow your past to contaminate your future!!!
Scott L. Boatner